Day in Portland

Up early and on the road south to Portland to meet up with Kirk and Rachel. I’m not really here. It is as though I am still in slow-wave sleep, one of the deepest stages of sleep. Or maybe I am in sleep inertia, the state just after being woken from a deep sleep when mental performance is yet impaired. In any case, I feel as though I’m drifting out of Washington and into Portland without plan, reason, or cause, and from the looks of the multitude of homeless people in downtown Portland, they, too, are hereby mysterious circumstances.

How about lunch? Sure, you guys name it; I don’t know this part of town. Hell, I don’t know any part of this town, nor do I know why I agreed to come here. I want to be at the ocean. I have gone on vacation to get away from it all, and now I’m in the middle of it all. How about this place? Yeah, give me a fork. I might at other times feel that my distance could be interpreted as rude detachment, but I’m working at convincing myself that I am moving into the abyss of old age and hope that those around me can accept and understand why so little of me is presently here and thus allow me to feel better about my funk.

Kirk and I were in competition for who could visit the buffet more times than the other. It was a draw, not that this meal would weigh too heavily upon us, as most of the dishes were vegetarian. Finished with our feast and being in the Pacific Northwest there is an unspoken demand that you stop every 20 minutes for coffee, else why the crazy proliferation of coffee shops? Rachel recommended a shop around the corner for the four of us to imbibe some hot black liquid energy. Wicked strong and well suited to take the pallor off an otherwise gray day.

Our mobile larder needed stocking, so shopping at something akin to Whole Foods was on order; we were delivered to New Seasons in the Seven Corners area of Portland. With plans to do some serious vegetarian cooking over an open fire, I piled the veggies into our shopping cart. Fortuitous this stop proved to be as we had bought a block of Beecher’s Flagship cheese that we fell in love with and would be surprised later in the trip upon visiting Pike’s Place in Seattle to stumble into their factory.

Our tour of Portland took us to Washington Park, which sits next to the much larger Forest Park. My spirits perk up; I am near nature. Vacation must be close at hand; the imagination is awakening. Not long after our encounter with the natural world, plans are made to return for some hiking in these parks with Kirk and Rachel. In minutes, we are delivered back to our dash animations and soon find ourselves gliding silently out of Portland on our way to the Pacific Ocean. We agreed to meet Kirk and Rachel for dinner in Astoria before our day’s journey ends in Ft. Stevens State Park, where a yurt awaits us.

A little Italian place is chosen where we have the chance to meet Rachel’s children, Cassidy and Ian. Ian made a great impression by first being listless, lethargic, and generally grumpy due to a cold or allergies until after dinner when, with great aplomb, he hurled what little dinner he had eaten upon the sidewalk. Kirk, not having a dog-pooh picker-upper bag with him, had to abandon the cheesy pile for the next dog to walk by – you just know a dog wouldn’t be able to help itself to that little midnight snack.

I felt for Rachel this evening; not only did she have to comfort her barfing boy, but earlier in the day, she voiced concern for her daughter Cassidy, who, as she described it, “is getting a little too hormonal.” It must be tough on a mother to think her kid is about to go succubus. Caroline and I failed to pick up this side of her daughter’s precocious nature as we were preoccupied with wolfing down dinner so we could make our way to the coziness of our yurt. We actually thought both children were pleasantly well-behaved. Kirk, Rachel, and the kids took off for their nearby hotel; we retired to our yurt, falling asleep to the sound of the ocean in the distance.

Note: I, too, wonder why there were no photos from this day, not even bad ones.

Go North and Relax

A toilet-frozen solid required our airline to bring us another plane so we could leave for Seattle, Washington, this evening. Better late than never, we thought, and in shorts and a light shirt arrived at the Seattle/Tacoma airport shortly before midnight. Cold air welcomed us, leaving no doubt that we had left the warm comfort zone of the desert.

At the Dollar Rental Car desk, we are given the electronic door opener/fob for a car but no key. Oh, that IS the key, I’m informed. “You have been upgraded to a Prius. Do you know how to drive one?” Oh, come on, I’ve been driving for, think, count out on fingers, um, like about almost 30 years. “Well, let me show you a few things…” Fine. You place the door/fob thing in this hole in the dash and then push the Start button. Everything lights up, but the engine doesn’t start – oh yeah it’s a hybrid – it doesn’t need to. To put the car in gear, there is a shifter on the dashboard; push left and up for reverse and left and down for drive, gotcha.

What he should have warned me about was the engine/battery usage animation on the small screen in the middle of the dashboard. I’d like to know how many accidents have been had by people spending too much time watching the engine engage and the little tires turning round and round instead of the road. South of the airport, we check in to our motel to get six hours of sleep.

Note: I, too, wonder why there were no photos from this day, not even bad ones.

Finished

I am done in Santa Barbara. My uncle Woody has been cleared by his surgeon to return to a normal life, for all that means to an 84-year-old man. For the better part of two and a half months, I have lived away from Caroline, home in Arizona. I have been frustrated, elated, and overwhelmed – daily. My schedule was not an option; more often than not, compromise goes one way here. This, though, is not a complaint. I find thanks and reward in having learned a little something about patience, caring, and sharing.

My return home happened a week ago, but I have needed this quiet, down, me, time to unwind and spend many a moment with my wife. The most important lesson came when my uncle was in the nursing center for his rehabilitation: loneliness is likely a more dire predicament than any illness or physical pain. Family neglect of a loved one and abandonment are the springboards into despair and loss of hope. Without real love and care, the spark of life quickly withers, and the corruption of age ravages the spirit and body to disregard what time may have been left here on earth. I wonder how few of us will learn this lesson while we can gain from it at an early age. Why are we so arrogant to refer to ourselves as a society when our aims for living and social conduct neglect teaching one another the necessity of compassion beyond our immediate family. There are selfless people all around us, nurses, teachers, volunteers, and many others, but they are unseen until our own needs expose their generosity to our naive fortress of me, myself, and I.

The lesson of love and tolerance should be taught as though it were math or science, but then, if we were a compassionate people, war would be all the more difficult, retribution neutered, hate and intolerance might be seen as archaic instead of brands of temporary awareness we sell people who are looking to buy an action to purpose before the next distraction is imposed upon their narrow focus of consumption.

Back in Town

Taking a farm tour at Tonopah Rob's Vegetable Farm in Tonopah, Arizona

I have left Santa Barbara for a few days to be on hand for the re-opening of Tonopah Rob’s Vegetable Farm which is expanding from a farm stand to a small farmers market. Rob has added tent space to allow about a half dozen vendors to join him on Saturday mornings selling fresh local food to our community. More people than any of us imagined showed up for opening day. Above is about the largest group of visitors I have seen taking a farm tour. I have also come back to town as this Tuesday is our Presidential election and I have been so busy in California I had not the opportunity to request an absentee ballot.

A Favorite

Stamen

I have taken thousands of photos out on Tonopah Rob’s farm over the past year and have been delighted to gaze upon so much beauty day after day. The desert offers many a shade of brown and tan but only rarely do vibrant colors emerge from our near barren landscape. Out on the farm I have watched purple and orange cauliflower mature. Carrots are pulled from the earth in red, yellow, purple, and orange hues. Blue and red potatoes hide below the surface as do the red, white, and golden beets. Lettuce, too, grows in a rainbow of colors out here. The flowers intermingle amongst the plots as invitations to pollinating insects to come work their magic while other flowers act as bug barriers. The sunflowers, bright yellow and orange with metallic blue center, tower overhead while offering shade to the ground-hugging veggies below.

Working on the farm can be like a small vacation where the conformity and oppression of the city melts away and nature blooms for me to stand in awe of her majesty.